BORED

Not much has been going on lately. I've been working, trying to sleep, eating. The usual. I have been so bored lately. I have no hobbies. I have great ideas in my head, but I do nothing about it. There are so many things I want to do, but I have no energy. I guess being a single mom will do that. I wish I could spend more of my time alone doing something productive. Cleaning is the last thing I want to do. I want to DO something. I want to go out and DO something. I don't want to go to a bar (those days are OVER), I don't want to go to a movie....they cost WAY too much. My friends all stay at home with their husbands/boyfriends and kids. Me? BORED! Awww...po po me. Anyway, enough of my whining. I don't really have anything else to say. If anyone has any suggestions on something that I can do that costs NOTHING, it would be great. Thanks!

More Time to Bitch

Dear Stupid Boyfriend,
I don't know why you insist on bothering me every second. I have never met anyone who can talk so much about nothing. I try to listen, but after a while you get pretty boring. After all this time together, I still don't understand why you ask my opinion on EVERYTHING. Even though 90% of the time I don't answer you, I can still hear you. Being a mom, you learn to hear everything. I just don't want to have to hear you. If I wanted more kids, I would have stayed with my ex-husband!

Why do you always wake up mad? Are you upset b/c you woke up today? or do you think I'll feel sorry for you that you have to go to work? I hate hearing you cuss every morning. Just once, please keep your mouth shut!

A queen size bed is meant for 2 people to fit comfortably. It is not meant for you to crawl up into the fetal position in the middle of the bed and expect ME to be comfortable. Sometimes I don't want to touch you. I just want my half of the bed.

Now I know why your mom calls all the time. You know that she will do anything to make you happy. Sorry hon, I'm not your mom. I can't always tend to your every need. I am me. This is how it works. I have compromised plenty...........just give me my half of the bed without bitching. Not everyone is against you......quit taking everything so personal.

Well, enough for now. Don't want to get too riled up before bed!

Mom and me

This has been a decent weekend so far. The weather isn't TOO hot and everyone seems to be in a good mood. Of course, that always helps me. I still new to this blogging thing, but I'm doing my best. I have always loved to write, but lately my thoughts are so jumbled, it's really hard to put everything into words. I can think of a thousand things in my mind, but I couldn't explain it to you! I don't know how many people have even read my blog....who knows, it might just be me. But it does feel good to know that maybe someone, somewhere is relating to me...even if it is just a little bit. I have read many others blogs and so far I have noticed that ALOT of people are getting paid to do this. Jeez, I would love it if someone wanted to pay me to write about my day to day life. I would really let you all in on some REALLY good stuff!!!! But for now, until I feel completely comfortable, I will keep most things private. I don't want to give out too much info about myself. My MOM could be reading this!!! LOL, my mom is my best friend. She knows so much about me it's scary. I do wish sometimes though she would be more like a mom than a friend. I go to her with just about everything, from relationships, to work, to being a mom. I don't always want the advice she tries to hand out. I feel like she wants me to be like her, but what she needs to understand that I am my own person. She raised me to be independent, which I am thankful for. I know what responsibilites are.....even though I was spoiled. I knew what I could and couldn't do. And also what my consequences were. She always told me that I could be whatever I wanted when I grew up. Well, the only problem is, I still haven't figured that out. And that sucks! I'm not very good at making simple decisions. I worry myself to death about everything. I always think of others when I decide something. I wonder how my family would feel instead of what I would feel. I'm not selfish in any way. I really never have been. I have noticed lately that I am more like my mom than I thought. We are always changing our minds on what we want. We like our freedom, but want someone there. We HATE to be told what to do.....by anyone! If we could work for ourselves, we would. But then I'm sure once we did, we would want to move on to something else!

Well, Mom, if you end up reading this, I just want you to know that I love you very much. I know at times we argue and fight about things, but it's because I love you. We don't always have the same views and of course that's OK. Please just remember that you raised me the best you knew how. I promise to do the same for my daughter. I will always give her hugs and tell her I love her......just like you did to me. I will always be here for you, no matter what. Thanks for everything.